Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Somebody please keep me sane. I'm losing it. I woke up feeling different. I woke up feeling like a walking burden to whoever that lives with me. oh god.

7:09 PM

Monday, November 23, 2009

I really really really miss you right now. I wish you were here too. I wished I could be there for you right now and go through the pain and torture for you. Feel better soon sayang. ):
If you get better soon, I promise to bring Pizza Hut over to your house k! And you can laugh and make fun at me all day long and I won't complain. At most I would ignore you. BUT, then again, how long can I ignore you for right? (x
Love you forever and ever sayaaaaaaaaang!

Xoxo, Mar. (Heheehe I know you love GG right. HAHAHA)
See, I could have picked pink but I chose blue. (;

10:34 PM

JengJengJeng.


I would say I have mixed feelings about this but I'm certain that I'll pull through.

7:05 AM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

There has to reasons behind everything. Like a silver lining to every cloud. There has to be an over-arching reason to each act. I have mine but what more would other's think of me if I were to do so. So am I suppose to be walloped up by self-grief and sorrows while others find it rather amusing or "fun" unknowing to the pain searing through my belittled heart. I have a heart too. Everyone has it. It's an understatement. I looked out for theirs but who looks out for mine?


It is true that the world can be unjustifiable at times. So let me walk on this winding path alone with only my intuition to navigate my away around. I desired the warmth from the clasp but only uncertainty crept through its tenderness.

11:04 AM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad coz you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love you, no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

8:09 PM

I know everything isn't meant to last
Box up all those photographs
You're moving on
I could flip back over that hour glass
And refill the better half

And it's a miracle how broken hearts can mend
Won't you dry up all those tear drops and start again

9:55 AM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Four memorable and meaningful years in Victoria School.


Recalling back the moment when I was being told that I was being enrolled into Victoria School, a cloud of uncertainty instantly engulfed me. My mind was filled with anxiety, elation, doubts. Almost all my feelings were stirred up within me because I wasn't sure if I did make the right decision. But now, after four indelible years of being a Victorian, I am most certain that it was the right path for me.


Secondary 1 started off alright with me gaining new friends of all kinds. I remembered I wasn't really that approachable and both Luqman and Hamzah really had a hard time trying to socialize with me. They both turned out to be the best of buddies anyone could ever asked for. We both went through both thick and thin together regardless of any circumstances. We kept in checks on each other and subconsciously, we grew closer. They were the first few malay friends I had in VS. Of course, there was Anuruddhan, Dominic, Si hao, Jianghan and many others whom had somewhat ease me through the first phase on entering the secondary school life. Then came my seniors, my soccer seniors. Nuri, Khairil, Masri, Ridzwan, Farhan were all there to guide me through and taught me of our vibrant and rich tradition in the soccer arena. It was then that I realised that nothing is more important than perseverance and teamwork. We work as team, win as a team, lose as a team and enjoy each other's company. We then went on to clinch runner's up in the National's champion league. Although, I didnt really get to play much, I thoroughly enjoyed the experience and learnt a whole lot from them. The year ended off with a high.

Secondary 2 year was a little intense yet enthralling with soccer being one of my highlights in my entire 4 years . Yes, it was with Mr Leo that I came to realise that ironically I am left-footed. Mr Leo happened to be my form teacher/ history teacher and still is a very instrumental and influential person in my life. I have taken away with me many life lessons that he experienced and he made me realised that only with humility then you can gain the respect of people. Before you even gain their respect, you have to respect them first and most importantly, respect yourself. Well, if you think that he has a strict personality, think again. He is probably one of the most fun-going teachers I have ever met. Really like ever. Have you ever seen a teacher who would go all casual and joke about almost everything under the sun? Accompanied you to do history project and gave you an insight to almost anything you can ever asked for? Yes, I owe it to him and hands down to him.



Sec 3 and 4. Yes, a very hectic phase. Studies, Soccer and a little complications here and there. Still, I persevered with the help of my teachers; Mr Zuraimi, Mr Wong, Mr Kenneth Chong, Mr Chan, Ms Ho, Mdm Tang and my good friends. I shan't elaborate much during this phase but what I did take away from my 4 years in VS are Friendship, Trust, Dedication, Pride, Believe.

The pride of being a victorian still lives within me.

Nil Sine Labore.

Graduated.

9:41 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

I remembered very distinctively that I still owe my good friend a post. Since I do have time to spare, I shall tell you a thing or two about this very good friend of mine.


Well, it all initially started way back on the first few days when my friendster account was being created. It was a kind of a new trend back then and I was really "ketinggalan zaman". So in order to not miss out what they claimed to be the latest craze, I created one as well and went on board onto this cyberworld. True enough, it grew addictive and strangers were starting to add me as friends. It was really something for me. Like you get to know someone new and curiosity would definitely get the better of you and you would simply explore just to get to know the person. Typically, redundant questions were being asked back then despite me knowing that all the info's were on their pages itself. Yeah, I was attempting to strike up conversations to get to know them. Oh, this was all in the Sec 2 year in VS. So yup, on one faithful day, my good friend added me and being a selengeh that I still am now, I just tried pick up a conversation with my good friend. Undoubtedly, those were very shallow and brief ones.

But there was still progress as it shifted from friendster to msn and to an exchange in numbers between us. My intentions back then was to simply socialize like just making new friends. Little did I know that that very friend of mine would soon make a significant impact in my life. I would say, I wouldn't really be better off without those advices and yeah the company you gave me. This good friend of mine possesses all the qualities that one would look out for and friendly nature made it easy for me to really get along with my good friend. Patient, funny, blur at times, honest, straightforward, fun-going; you named it XD. Oh, one plus factor is that my good friend is cute and coincidentally happened to be a loser as well (:

I recalled facing a huge crisis and I knew that no one could be able to lift the tremendous pressure and burden that I have shouldered but my good friend proved me otherwise. My good friend stood by me and picked me up as I slowly crumbling down. Bit by bit, I was attended to. Although, we had to start from scratch, my good friend didn't really back out on me and offered the best of advices and managed to turn the frown upside down whenever needed to. I really cherished the time when I could have said it way earlier on.


Despite all those, there were moments were things went out of hand and there was this phase which we seemed 'distanced'. Well, let bygones remain as bygones. I am certainly glad that to have met a friend like you and there aren't others who can really replace that place of yours as you are unique.




Enough said although the story can really go on and on. So i chose to really summarize what I think I should or can mention. So yup, 4 more days in Victoria School and before graduating.

8:06 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I wouldn't say it's all lost although I had enough.

12:27 AM