Monday, December 27, 2010

Me

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n life, the first act is always exciting. The second act is where the depth comes in. The year 2010 was an eye opener for me. It began with lots of hopes and dreams. I was then an eager freshman, awaiting for what lies ahead of me when I first took a step into jc. With me were my loyal companions, all just eager to dive into this new world. I told myself that I will not change for the worse despite being in a completely new environment. I promised myself to hold on to it firmly because of all the stories of people changing as they moved on frightened me till then. They say that change is inevitable. I didn't want to be the guy who was just a shadow of his old self and the guy with no roots attached. I wanted to be me. To be myself, or I thought I was myself. Time flew and pretty soon it was somewhere in the middle of the year. All it took was just a conversation with this good friend of mine. She told me that I was different. Different from the Saufi she used to know. The knock came in soo hard to the extend that I literally froze on my chair with my eyes still glued to this computer screen. Almost instantly, I was brought back to the start of the year with flashbacks after flashbacks kept running through my mind. I wanted so hard to deny that I was a changed person but it was futile. I was proven wrong. I did a little soul-searching. At that point, I was really helpless. I didn't know what to do. I kept asking myself " Who am I ? " and yet the reply from the heart was " Spiderman" . I did chuckle because I can't seem to get the line from Spiderman off my head but it grew annoying because I couldn't even define me. It really took me a while to find the solution to it. And the solution was just staring right in front of me from the start. Embrace life as it is. It is true that people change. Be it for the good or bad, we can only define me if we choose to be true to ourselves. Yes, that means that we are always changing but for the greater good or bad, that lies entirely in your hands. It is a test of character and good will. The will to just carry on with life even when shit is thrown at you. I learnt so much about myself and others. I am proud to say that I know myself better after this year ends. Of course, this year wouldn't be complete without the company of my friends, both old and new found friends.

Friends

I just want to say that I am really this fortunate to have met such good friends in my new school as well as the old ones. Wan Faridzuan , Heetesh , Siddharth, Jarrell , Ayeshah, Naufal and this list goes on.

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