Thursday, April 29, 2010

It has been approximately 2 months. If you were to look back, the holidays didn't seem too long ago. Maybe it's true. Days after days have been so mundane to the extent that you can't remember anything significant that ever did occur to you in school. Mendak, I'll say. Its just a daily cycle that we have to go through, week in and week out. Today is a Friday and the next day is a Monday again. Where were Saturday and Sunday? Where have the weekends gone to?

Yet again, I never did spend my time constructively. Time has or had been wasted by staring into space or merely looking around. I see people all around me changing. I see myself changing and doubting my own identity. It hurts at times when you feel that you could or already made the effort to change the perception of others but not receive what you deserve. Maybe some form of acknowledgment would ease the pain a little.

I would think that I'm the type of person who would be there whenever needed to but would be invisible whenever I'm not needed. Is it really true? I don't know for myself. It's either that or I'm simply a wanderer who roams around aimlessly in search for attention? That will make me an Attention-seeker. I've been paying much closer attention to even the trivial of things. I noticed. I scrutinized. I simply get going with life. Sometimes feigning ignorance can be a bliss.

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