I'm really not certain of what I'm feeling now. It is this feeling where you think you are compelled to feel like so but your heart tells you not to? As in for instance when it boils down to decision making, I would be split between two or sometimes more. Like whenever I reacted to something, I would always have second thoughts and doubts about my reactions . The uncertainty. The lack of sheer confidence for my actions. I feel that I'm being judged based on my antics and not my intentions.



I don't really know if I've been a decent friend to others. I don't know if what I'm doing now is right. I don't know what I say at times. I don't know why l said stuff at times. I don't know how I feel. I don't know. I just don't know.