Time does fly when you know that you are doing nothing. It has been close to a week since the surgery. Some of the wounds are dried up and others are still...uhm..yeah not dried yet. The past one week seemed to have dragged longer than expected. The doctors claimed that the first two weeks would probably be the most dreaded two weeks i would ever encounter and true to what they say, the pain kicked in almost instantaneously on the fourth day of the week. When I say pain, I meant both physical and emotional.


No doubt my good friends and sayang were there to alleviate the pain but what resurfaced after they left were my grief and self-doubts. I grieved for the fact that this was how it felt like being physically-challenged. I grieved over the simplicity that god has given us and how we, the fortunate ones, take almost everything for granted. It was as though I was stepping into their shoes. Being unable to tend to myself made me realized how grateful I am that this pain would be temporary. However, my stay at the hospital really did give me an eye-opener. Typically, I would visualise the nurses there to be rather "focussed"onto their job and not the fun type of people. What I meant was that the ward would be mundane. Not only that, I too have a huge tendency of being condescending towards them although I couldn't really reason with myself to why but it just happen naturally. It sucks to look down on others when you yourself are not deemed fit to be all high and mighty. Besides, who was I to look down on them. That was my very first impression when I was walking towards my ward before the surgery. Surprisingly, a nurse. eh no. A PRETTY nurse smiled towards me. That was unexpected and pretty soon, I assumed, her friends/colleagues were smiling at me. Be it guy or girl. That was certainly reassuring for me. I felt this instant warmth of acceptance and the surgery to me during that point of time felt nothing and trivial. Just what a lost and anxious guy needed. I smiled back. I guess the rest were rather history as I was all changed to the surgical attire/clothing or whatever they call it and was brought to the surgery table. I last recalled the surgeon asking me which leg and yeap, I passed out.


If I'm not wrong, I woke up to the much delighted faces of Farhan and Taufik. So yeap, pretty soon the rest visited me and I could never thank them enough for dropping by. It meant alot to me. To everyone who visited me, thank you very much.


Then came the incident which changed my whole mindset of this great nurses and their jobs. I shan't elaborate it to prevent further embarrassment but they earned my respect. Not only were they soo patient while tending to me, they even bother to befriend me. Asking me of my background and all. They were this Kakak and this abang guy, who are 22 and 17 years respectively. Now, talk about the insignificant age gap. They were still far more mature and understanding than anyone i ever met. I was a burden to them but they never fail to return a reassuring smile to me. Oh, there was this time when they had to inject/insert the antibiotics through the a.v input thingy on my hand. If you guys notice, every patient will have this thingy on their left hand which is connected to a drip bag. It's either on the left or the right. So yup, as you all know that I can't really bear pain, but it was really really painful. I had to tell her off it and unexpectedly, she began to like somewhat caress my wrist area. It helps to decrease the pressure and obviously the pain. What astounded and humoured me was that she said,

" Seumur kerjaku sebagai seorang nurse, tak pernah aku nampak satu nurse pun yang betul-betul sayang dengan patientnya." Its what i could recall, i think.

When translated, it simply means that all this while, she has never seen any nurse that really care for her patient.

It was really hilarious when she said it. Everyone there was laughing. Including me. So i guess sincerity does play a huge part in their daily work. It totally changed my whole mindset of them. Oh, there was this other nurse who came in the morning on the day I was discharged. I just woke up and there, she commented " tidur aje". I laughed it off as she just smiled and walked away. The abang there too were nice too. So yup. Enough about the nurses, I was discharged and headed back home.

Much will be said later on.