I could be me
Monday, December 29, 2014
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Truth
Friday, November 28, 2014
Where do we begin?
Monday, November 10, 2014
Ratu
Ratapan naluri
Memanggilkan namamu
Kerana pertemuan ini
Akanku abadikan
Segala memori
Kulewati waktu itu
Didalam pelukanku
Gugurnya pemisah
Di antara kita terbinanya
Satu mercu tanda
Cinta yang setia
Meredahi masa meniti usia
Hingga keakhirnya
Kuabadi cinta dihati ini
Tuesday, November 04, 2014
Survival
We often overlook and underappreciate the slightest of things leading up to the tough times. Be it a small gesture or something as little as a good luck wish. As such, we develop this tendency or false impression that we are left all alone to face and overcome the unpredictable tides. Maybe is it is just human nature to be selfish and to save one self from the upcoming storm. Survival of the fittest they say. Naturally, our mindset will drown away the cries/rally of others and brace ourselves for the impending impact. Then again, not all would pull through or survive unscathed.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Here I am, not being able to fall back to sleep again. It gets frustrating at times because you know you have to be up early but you can't seem to grab some proper shut eye. Instead, you will end up counting down to the number of hours left and gradually you will be left with minutes and the next thing you know, you have to be up.
I guess it is not easy to always turn a blind eye to something so blatant. It makes me question. Questions my rationale, questions the purpose, questions after questions but yet no answer for.
Monday, October 27, 2014
Give it a rest will you?
Numerous nights I spent trying to fall asleep but ironically, my eyes would only grow heavy from all the attempts of falling to sleep. As such, I will try something different for a change. As I sit by the ledge of this room of mine, I will immerse myself in my unspoken thoughts that I long neglected.
The past three months had been an eye opener and much of a culture shock for me. University is really a totally different ball game altogether. Everything is all about grades. Everyone seems to be competitive. No wait, everyone is competitive. Grades are all that matter at the end of the day. Every day, apart from the lectures and assignments we have to keep up with, there will always be test dates or reports due at the back of our minds. These just make uni life a mundane vicious cycle because week in and out, your workload will be similar to the week before and it gets piled up every single week. It is a no wonder you see people with the word "stress" scribbled all over their faces. Of course there are exceptions but mostly, the stress is there.
Nonetheless, I learnt that in order for us to survive this experience, it is always good to have friends that you can rely on to make going to school less miserable than it already is. I am thankful to have such great company at my hall and also my new friends. I guess sometimes you don't always have to carry the burden by yourself.
It is always hard making the right decision or saying the right things. At times, you can't help but to swallow your words despite the fact that you are right but would rather leave it as it is so as to alleviate the situation. At times, you just don't have the heart to say it because you will risk hurting one's feelings. Ignorance is really a bitch but then again, what can be done if one decides to just be that way.
"Treat others the way you would want them to treat you or treat them the way they treat you?" That question never fails to amuse me. It is hard to give an answer because for both, it can be dependent on your mood at that point in time. True enough that the ethical answer will be to treat others the way you would treat them but then again, they are not you and they do not think or act accordingly like you. So it will backfire and that leaves us to the other option which is the less ethical one.
If you ask me, the first is the ethical and the one I will choose because although others may not be me but they do not define who I am or who I should be. They do not dictate who I will be. It is all about your own principles my friend and you stand by it unless your principles are a little flawed then you change it for the better. Then again, that's my stand and my decision alone. Others may differ in opinions